My bestfriends, Farahain, Marsha and Amira.

Nabil, my bestfriend.

Munifah and Eleena ♥

Azreena!

Acap and Azreena represent!

The ladies

Thank you for coming! You guys are awesomeee. I had fun!

when im depressed i will start to draw...
ill start to draw something with strong lines.
yea thats how i let go of my anger, cats and drawings.
they understand me...unlike you ♥

when i finally forget about a guy then another one comes in, then i cant forget him now. arh perangai wa piangz sia. stress, why must i like guys, theyre like major letdowns, mindfuck uh their words and actions.

“How can you be afraid to fall in love?”
when your girlfriend lives 150 miles away, and
you can only end up seeing her twice a month at most,
and you’re the most paranoid person ever, it’s starting
to make sense. but she loves you. and she told you this
first, that you guys are best friends. everything she says sounds
so sincere, but it’s all just a mindfuck anyway.

she tells herself she wouldn’t even care if he fucked her over,
but then she will get really sad and scared when she think of losing him.
Although she doesnt really believe he loves her. she feel like it would
be a more powerful feeling. but now she feels guilty. because she
wants to force herself to love him back, but she doesnt know how.
and you can’t fake love. maybe shes not meant to love anybody.

so hi
I’m the fucking tin man from the wizard of oz. I have no heart.

a part of me is dead

Do you want this *___?

No i dont.

Why? Are you scared?
No, im done hoping for you

Youre scared the feeling will grow huh?
The feeling is always there, just that you dont love me you still love her and you just like the idea of me being here for you

Thats unfair...
Well life's unfair, you figure out whats best for you, until then i am still your friend and i will always care for you.

and i dont want to be the rebound, im. just. a. person. from. your. past.

you came back...i guess i wasnt quite sure what to say to you. darling, youre the only on Earth i want to have but now im not so sure that was true after the hell you put me through. theres no sharp pain this time just the ghost of your presence compressing my chest like vines. i still remember how it all came back together just to fall apart again. so we cast our hearts in plaster...

im not a toy that you can play with. im not a puppet with strings around my fingers for you to pull and watch as i collapsed whenever you want. im not someone you can use...im not clean, im not pure, so you need not to rest until youre sure cause i dont want to hope.

i fell in love with la dispute over again. last time i had the eits fever, now la dispute is starting all over again.

It must be true what people say, that only time can heal the pain.
And every single day I feel it fade away, but -
I still remember how the distance tricked us,
And lead us helpless by the wrist into a pit to be devoured.
I still remember how we held so strong to this,
Though we had never really settled on a way out.
I still remember the silence, and how we'd always find a way
To turn and run to our mistakes.
I still remember how it all came back together just to fall apart again.
My dear, I hear your voice in mine.

—Andria


I felt your sickness brush against my arm as I walked by you —
Heard your voice but couldn't tell that it was you.
And, slowly, watched your sickness slip away into a place
That I'd once feared but I was not afraid this time
So I gave chase and found it, finally, slowly feeding from your head,
And from my friends, and from my family, so I grabbed it by the neck.
"For every lover you have ruined..." I dug my nails into it's flesh.
"... and every life that you have taken..."
Slammed it's head against the brick.
It's blood poured out onto the pavement,
I stirred it in with dirt and spit,
"I will take a part of you."
I made mortar from the mix.
Tore every organ from it's body,
Broke it's bone and fashioned bricks,
I laid the mortar in between,
I made a throne for hope to sit.
"Too long you've torn us into pieces,
Firmly held onto our wrists. Today I bury you in me."
I swallowed every inch of it.

—The last lost continent

i dont know why. sometimes i find it scary that somehow all the actors / artist i like starts with the letter J. cause thing is i rarely have celebrity crush.

Joseph Gordon Levitt
Jonathan Bennett
Juliette Simms
John Mayer
Jason Reeves

sometimes i have a feeling like my soon-to-be boyfriend starts with a letter J. well im just saying...

the first time I saw you, you turned away. i didnt see you with the blinded lights in my eyes. i said "hello" but you kept on walking, i turned deaf from the sound of the freeway. i didnt mean to meet you then, i was just a kid, i didnt mean to give you the chills, so im sorry. i didnt mean to fall, but i did. now here i am sitting by myself thinking of what to do. thinking of something new. i dont mind waiting, i never did. but you know what, nothing seems to work out. cause youre all thats on my mind, it only takes one thought of you to make me leave the rest of the world behind. The holidays had past, im glad i didnt spend it alone, memories of the time then will just kill me if i was on my own. my best laid reconsideration will only build and break your heart and only tear the whole world apart. my mind keeps racing cause im only scraped and sober but theres no one listening. is this anything beyond what you imagined? in the end we will forget what we used to say, as we both drift away and it wont change it will stay as it should be.

23/3

i got this serious illness with my digestion im glad its over with. thought:ive always wanted to be someone important to another someone. i guess, its still not the time of the year to get one. better luck next time.

i think i saw you in my sleep darling, i think i saw you in my dreams you were stiching up the seams on every broken promise that your body couldnt keep.
i think i saw you in my sleep...
i thought i heard the door open, oh no
i thought i heard the door open but
i only heard it close.