"i will never break you heart"...but you did, you did darling

so lesson learned, promises are meant to be broken, never make a promise if you cant keep it. lies are meant to be kept, so that you dont break One's heart.


as time past, as weather has changed i still love you.

yes here i go again, crying my heart out. this suck, i hate staying up late with nothing to do, i tend to look back. i tend to think back. i hate i hate i hate, i dont want to go through this every single day. maybe the story isnt finish, thats why i still have the urge to talk and speak. the page was left unwritten, so tell me what do you expect? the fact that i cant let go of this anger and hatred inside me being betrayed, being lied to in the face. how can i not see it coming. charms blinded me from seeing. sometimes...no i really regretted choosing something not worthwhile. i had the best one in my hands, so close to me then i just had to go and slip away to something subversive and unworthy of my presence. im never going to stop posting angsty and hateful posts cause ill never forgive and forget what has happened...words wont describe my rage, fullstops wont stop my anger, apology wont solve the maze.

i guess i never appreciate what i have. everything i lose is because of my mistakes, my carelessness. this time im going to make things right and not blow every chance i got and regret later. stuck in reverse.

so, hi. i disabled my formspring cause somehow people tend to ask me the same question over and over again. sorry i didnt answer some of it there. if any of youre wondering might as well i just answer it here.

1. Honestly in my whole life i only had 3 boyfriends.

2. In my last relationship, no i didnt ask for the break up.
3. Yes my ex boyfriends have met my parents and family
4. Ive played the piano since i was 6. But i stopped playing for 5 years not until last year.
5. Yes i draw and yes, i drew what you ever you see in my album.
6. I use a Nikon D90.
7. No im not rich, i just know how to save money.
8. I order my stuff online, i barely shop locally.

Currently:
Im interpreting my version of Lykke Li's - Possibility and Paramore - When it Rains (+) Doing a collage of stencils. I hope i finish these by end of this week.

unfamiliar faces

its not the best cover but i just find the lyrics very truthful and that i like atl.
"im over you now im at home in the clouds towering over your head"

im still thinking whether i want to do a new account. cause my list is getting pile up with people i dont even know. plus, i dont want the tagged photos from before, past posts, ill just end up reading through it everyday. sooo yeah, ill get back to you with this soon.

ignorance is not bliss.

many define ignorance differently if they are speaking about themselves or someone else. you may view your own ignorance as innocent yet someone else is guilty of their own ignorance. you might notice a difference. how do you judge or reprimand? some people are harder on self than they are on others. what are some possible reasons for your choices? Consider why people focus on things they believe they cannot do. In some cases, they even fight about it. you may view this as selective ignorance of potential or, you may simply notice discordant energy. the different levels of awareness affect perception of what you choose to see and feel right now. so ask yourself how you avoid being present in the moment and what you are becoming in future. to be present is to have a mind which is empty of thought, fear, judgment, everything. some people are convinced they are complacent if they do not find reason to feel anxious. so tell me now what brings you inner peace? cause i cant seem to find mine.

- nice teeth
- small eyes
- good english
- DOES NOT LISTEN TO HARDCORE (FUCK OFF)
- my alter ego
- never called me babe
- a pessimist (helps me see reality)
- never call me everyday
- never text me everyday
- but talk to me everyday (HOW NOW? : well theres a way, just think out of the box)
- never pay for my food (if you did ill pay you back or hide a stash of money under something)
- not just my boyfriend, but my bestfriend

in my eyes youre going to be the best boyfriend, but in others youd be the worst one.

you used me to let go of your past and im glad i was there to help you out of the dark. im glad i ignited the dimmed splinter. thank you for everything my friend.

one day you will find that in this world today, theres a lot of people taking advantage of innocent people and its not just the vulnerable ones, but a bigger percent of the society, which go on living with these advantages as they dont know if/or any which way to turn withough being terrified that their life might not be worth living. if i were to seek or do anything legal that might put their day living in jeopardy. this has always affected me and everybody else extremely and has contributed to the way that i am, in my everyday living. whatever happened to everyone helping one another in deep shit situations? our surrounding is getting a bad place to live in by the minute.

Well i guess if i dont want people to trample over me, i got to show them that i have dignity and that i have respect for myself and that i demand no less when people approach me. Ill stand for whats right, it doesnt hurt to say 'no' and its okay to say 'no' for the good to you and to say 'yes' to the best. Here i am letting my guard up, dont expect to let my guard down now cause youre on your own now. told you im not going to wait forever ♥

"i wanted everything to stay the same, but feelings fade and people change"

maybe you havent heard, yes the fact that im still schooling, yes. my big exam is in 2 months time, minus all the public holidays we have, weekends. i have approximately 3 weeks. im living in a hectic life. its hard. well to get good grades you have to work hard now dont you. i hope the hard work pays off.