I'm loving how my life is going now. Without any of you interfering my life, I am content. I love the people that is around me. I love my bestfriends and the people at work.

Apparently this feeling inside me is starting to build up for this one person. So to whom who may concern, I hope to see you in the future :)

I think I might just get myself back onto blogger again. I've gotta admit I've always loved the environment here compared to the other blogging sites. So I see I've gained alot of followers after being on hiatus so long. I shall keep this updated from now on! I miss writing, I miss everything. I hope you guys have better days ahead of you...Till then!

Apparently i miss the feeling when I'm here...

You're starting to build a home in my dreams and in my heart. Every night, i lay in this bed thinking, it's too early to fall asleep and we just need a little time for ourselves. Our hearts are heavy burdens, both you and i. So we shouldn't have to bear it alone. I am falling back on my premonitions, you're starting to become somebody to me. I've been through so much before, it's funny how the people i had feelings for are my bestfriends now. I don't want that. This time, i want the boyfriend and the bestfriend at the same time. You never fail to put a smile on my face.

I dont know whether you're going to read this. But if you knew, somehow you mean so much more than just this.

10 papers for 30 days = PURE TORMENT ♥

i really hope i can get through it. all the best to the other candidates, i wish you guys well! 20th December is my ticket to freedommm!

Everything is so messed up as it ever was and false hopes were raised from stray dreams. Underneath it all, underneath the smile, this skin, is an anxious apprehensive fool who just cant stop hoping for you. I am mulling over possibilities. Its not even possible. My laughter and smile only conceal the wreckage within. I am slowly disintegrating.
You're gullible, you are desperate at best. All you do is complain "I dont know what i want". Well did i mention your cries for attention is driving me insane?

This is going to be last. This is where im stopping, i hope you have the best people in your life. In case youre wondering on how ive been acting. Well...

I SHALL STOP BLOGGING :D I post too many emotional stuff. oo yes (realize after 150+ posts) oh no im a happy girl dont worry, i have the best people in my life this time right now, your existence really dont make a difference :B

Nowadays, i have lost the inspiration to write, to draw, to do anything. Focusing on something more worthwhile. So i'm sorry i havent talked to any of you lately, i really dont feel like it even if i replied im scared i would treat you like i dont know you, i dont feel like replying. But ill say hi one day, im sorry. Its not that im arrogant, its not that i think im 'all that', i just have hard time trusting people. I dont mind being friends tho, but this time right now its just not the time to make one. The year is reaching to an end. And im not complaining, its not like im perfect cause no one is but ive been encountering and meeting people who fight alot with their significant other every.single.day. Well appreciate what you have, you might just lose it the next day. Im uninspired. Im just a terribly disturbed girl looking for an inspiration.

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be back on next Tuesday.

you are a complete mystery. i practically throw myself at you, i offer everything and anything i have to give. you take me half way, but thoughts always run in your head like crazy. you think i dont accept some your flaws, some damages and distance. I think its time you pull it out, youre so busy looking at nothing and couldnt get better...but i hope you find what you want in life. i just want to tell you that i miss talking to you, knowing that you get and understand perfectly about me. Everytime i talk to someone else, it just reminds me of how much they dont.

When I come to you with my problems, you turn me away. Youre too busy; you’d rather do anything than help me. When you do listen you don’t really hear. Sometimes you laugh at me. You don’t try to understand what I am going through and make me feel like an ungrateful little brat. I always end up feeling worse.

When you come to me with your problem I listen. Just listen. I don’t tell you my opinion or criticize the way you think. I try to cheer you up and make you feel better. You cheer up. You stop your thought of self-destruction and stop crying. You can breathe again.

When she comes to you with her problems you are there for her. You smile, hug her, and tell her everything will be okay.

I may not be as outgoing, or pretty as her, but don’t I deserve that too? Who am I supposed to turn to when I’m sad?

Or maybe, you just don’t care.

Okay so i decided to get myself a tumblr account. I had it earlier this year, but i never reblog or post anything on it...till last night. What i post there is photos, i enjoy taking photos and i wish to share it with the world, different from what i post here, only my writings. Anyhow, I hope you take a look at my tumblr and if its not much to ask, follow :)